"We were set to get married and then the wedding was called off. My drinking had become a problem. They told me if I could just not drink for 30 days we would look at having the wedding back on. I was so angry and furious. I felt lost. There was even a point that I put an alarm in my phone telling me not to drink so I could have a baby. Thinking that if I had a baby then maybe I would stop drinking. I didn’t. I kept on drinking."