"I've always been a social drinker, mum drinker, weekend/party guzzler, bbq or pub garden binges etc. Never had a problem (as such) with alcohol except that I didn't know when to stop on a night out. This often led to black outs and massive day after anxiety. It caused quite a few volatile arguments with my husband too. I said the famous "I'm never drinking again" almost every time, yet a few days later I'd have a tough day or meet some friends at the pub, and so repeat the cycle.
My breakthrough point was a dear friends funeral on 19th December last year. She'd lost her battle with cancer and of course we all celebrated her life with plenty of drinks. Only this time I blacked out so much I can't remember getting home. I can't remember attacking my husband and sister both verbally and physically. I can't remember scaring my 12 year old son who heard the whole thing. Safe to say the next morning I had a lot of damage control to do whilst being filled in on what I did. Thankfully I wasn't overly physical, thankfully my son didn't SEE any of it and thankfully I did make it home to start with. That scared me though and I vowed there and then that I didn't want to waste another night, when my lovely friend didn't have any choice in not wasting her life away.
Giving up so close to Christmas was pretty damn hard and it also opened my eyes up to how often I’d actually turned to drink. Christmas day was amazing and I didn’t miss the usual drink with the hubby while preparing the food. Boxing day with all his family, who all drink, was pretty tough and the questions of why I wasn’t drinking were annoying. I just said I was on antibiotics as I didn’t want them judging me. New Year's rolled round and instead of booze and parties I curled up in bed with a film and food. My journey has by no means been easy. I suffer with severe anxiety and my son has autism, both two huge excuses I used to use for drinking. However I have be more constructive in facing my problems instead of hiding from them. I managed to lose weight, regain my health, save money and make new sober friends. I found reading as much as I could a key in helping me and would strongly advise people to do the same. My friends and family have mostly been 100% supportive, there’s events and things I’m not invited on as much anymore but if I’m honest I’d rather be at home with my beautiful family anyway.
I think I’ve definitely become a better wife, mum and person for ditching the poison. I promised my son I would never drink again and so far for 202 days I've kept that promise and plan on forever more. So that's my story and I hope it helps someone relate."